Cooking, cleaning, laundry, sitting near the window, homework, bathroom, going to bed. These are some of the areas where the loss of our cat Salem will nock us to the floor with grief. Salem was suck an important aspect in Andrew and my daily lives, one which was under appreciated until he was gone.
During these past few weeks Andrew and I have gone through the grieving process mostly alone. The adaptations we each have had to make to our routine has given each of us something difficult to handle. Salem was always a part of our daily activities. Even though I know Salem won’t come a running when I open a door to see what I’m doing, I will automatically start thinking that I need to hurry so I won’t accidentally shut him in a closet. This breaks my heart a new almost every day.
The pain and agony has eased a little bit. I am now starting to regain my drive to get things done. During the past few weeks I have let everything go, except my physical health for the sake of my unborn son. Just in the past few days I have started managing my apartment and my social life. My homework has suffered greatly but I now feel motivated to do it so I can support Aidan in the near future. My life is slowly coming together as I prepare myself to climb out of my grief to face the world. A world that I don’t want to face yet, but will for the sake of my unborn son.
About Me
- Rene
- I am 21 years old and live with my husband of a month and a half. I am currently experiencing my first pregnancy and loving it! Other than this cool info, I teach two sunday school classes, and am learning to be an early childhood educator.
3 comments:
Rene--this is a meditation, a prayer at the end, but it's not a sketch of anything, not a vignette. You're telling us about things, not showing much. Here's where you break into a vignette for an instant:
"Even though I know Salem won’t come a running when I open a door to see what I’m doing, I will automatically start thinking that I need to hurry so I won’t accidentally shut him in a closet. This breaks my heart a new almost every day."
There, suddenly, we have a picture, a human moment--the rest is telling us about those moments without showing them. Does that make sense?
Yes it does. Thank you for the comment. My head is still not on straight so my other pieces probably don't fit this weeks theme either. Would you like me to try again? Or leave it alone?
Leave it as is.
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